This morning was only my 3rd run this year and one that I’ve been putting off for weeks. I suffered an injury back in November and was advised to take the rest of the year off to recover. Amazingly I didn’t gain any weight over Christmas and then, after another check up, starting on my running plan for the next Ultra. Second run in and a sudden hamstring pain stopped me in my tracks. And that’s when the fear kicked in.
What if this pain comes back every run and I can’t run anymore? What if I am stuck running 5k races and can not get back to long distance again?
Safest thing is to rest and recover. Right? So I did and I kept coming up with excuses convincing myself that it wasn’t the right time, it was too cold, too wet, etc. The worst thing was I knew I was making excuses and still I couldn’t get out of the door. Day after day went by and it got easier and easier to not put my kit on and go out and run.
I’m not like a lot of runners out there who enjoy running, the best I can achieve is I tolerate it. To be brutally honest it bores me but I do have the ability to shut off my brain and kind of blank out. If nothing else it makes the distance and time go faster. 🙂
So why go running if you don’t enjoy it? I guess it’s a personal battle to push myself further than I’ve done before. It’s not really a challenge if it’s fun, is it? The next event for me is The Isle of Wight Ultra again. We have unfinished business the Island and Me. I had to come back and complete the whole circle as not finishing the last 6 miles last time has prayed on my mind. Only time will tell if I manage it this year and I know that I won’t be able to move on without finishing even if I have to crawl over the line.
Hopefully the 4 miles this morning will be the catalyst to get the training plan back under way. I’ve lost 2 weeks already and have to get my base fitness back up again before I get to long distance training again.
New Charity this year: The Princess Alice Hospice. A very local charity this time and one that I know will inspire me to push myself.